Story Behind The Song

This is a very sad song about someone who is waiting at the clinic to get the results of his HIV test. Sometimes in relationships, people cheat. Sometimes they keep their HIV status a secret. That is what this song is about. That is why it is important to wear protection at all times, even in monogamous relationships.

Song Description

Electronic beats set to soft flute synths. Many people can relate to the subject matter of this song and I feel it is important that there is music that talks about this feeling. Many high-risk youth today can relate to waiting at a clinic and wondering what their future holds because of bad decision making with sex and relationships.

Lyrics

Was it you who said
?I?m never gonna break your heart.?
Well, you lied to me
And now I?m falling apart, thinking of things
while I quietly and patiently wait at the clinic to see if I am clean.

Nevermind those little things, didn?t want to see
Let me leave them, leave them be
What becomes of me?
What am I to do?
What if I end up like you?
What will I be if I am HIV positive?

What I?d like to do
Is get up off this chair and run
Get away from here and ride off into the sun, just like that boy
In that childhood story of hope,
Left with nothing but one grain of sand ?

If I ever get
Out of this old clinic alive
I will be much better than I was at the time I first came by
Or the night when you said goodbye
Or, of course, until the next time ?

Was it me who said,
?I?m never gonna be the same.?
Well it?s in my head and now I?m playin? the game.
Singing this song
Hoping it will carry along
All the time I?m sitting here waiting

Nevermind those little things, didn?t want to see
Let me leave them, leave them be
What becomes of me?
What am I to do?
What if I end up like you?
What will I be if I am HIV positive?