Story Behind The Song

This song was born from the emotional aftermath of a friendship and creative partnership falling apart when this person decided they didn't want to be my friend due to my sexual attractions. In that loss, I rediscovered parts of myself I had buried--especially the side that feels deeply and embraces vulnerability. The lyrics reflect my own realization that I didn't have to choose between strength and softness, masculinity and femininity. My wife played a major role in that healing, and this song is both a closure to the pain and a celebration of the love and self-acceptance I found through it. "Both Sides Of Me" became a breakthrough moment where I stopped suppressing who I was and embraced every part. It's a personal song, but I hope it connects with others who've also walked a path toward self-acceptance.

Song Description

"Both Sides Of Me" blends pop and contemporary soul to tell the story of someone who rediscovers their wholeness after heartbreak. With a focus on self-acceptance and emotional honesty, it's a powerful expression of duality--masculine and feminine, hurt and healing, pain and pride.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
I could fake it
I could tell you anything
I wouldn't appreciate it
I'd rather just let you bleed

I've been bitter for two
Against you and against myself
I guess it's time to choose
If I pick you or I pick myself

[Pre-Chorus]
It was clear we wouldn't last
You made me wonder where my heart was at
Thanks to your betrayal, I was able to learn
I love all of me and it all is in her

[Chorus]
When every critique you spoke cut so deep
I dug just as far to the soul of me
And when wounds came to surface, I was able to see
I'm both indeed, but also complete

[Verse 2]
I lost you so I could find myself
You were letting go, it was clearly felt
One side screamed, but I let you walk
Cause that was better than to never talk

And she was there, she heard my cry
She saw all that I had kept inside
Now, I'm right where I need to be
Proud of her and I'm proud of me

[Pre-Chorus]
It was clear we wouldn't last
You made me wonder where my heart was at
Thanks to your betrayal, I was able to learn
I love all of me and it all is in her

[Chorus]
When every critique you spoke cut so deep
I dug just as far to the soul of me
And when wounds came to surface, I was able to see
I'm both indeed, but also complete

[Bridge]
She... is both sides of me (ooh)
She... is all that I need
She... is my sexuality (ooh)
She... is both sides of me
And I love her with both sides of me
Both sides of me

[Chorus]
When every critique you spoke cut so deep
I dug just as far to the soul of me
And when wounds came to surface, I was able to see
I'm both indeed, but also complete
I'm also complete
With both sides of me